A decision to prioritise the relationships that fill me up

I decided to deprioritise relationships that don’t fill me up and put more effort and energy into the relationships that do fill me up.

Prior to this decision, and it is a decision that I’ve made every day for the past year or so, I’d feel quite bogged down with obligation, quite trapped. I’d feel quite heavy having to keep up sort of relationships that don’t really serve me. Relationships where there’s not really a lot of shared values, shared interests, shared outlooks on life. Relationships that – they might be old or new – are just being kept up for the sake of loyalty or familiarity.

But I’d find being with said people, sometimes, it could just feel quite heavy. It could feel like there’s a lack of flow. It feels like there’s friction. Like I didn’t really have the room to express myself fully, just due to a lack of common understanding.

So now, I’ll be making the effort to just put more energy. Invest more time into the select people where I feel there is understanding. Natural connection, where it’s not too forced. Where there’s shared values, shared outlooks, shared ways of thinking.

You know what? It’s given me more energy. It’s a weight off my shoulders. Socialising has just become a bit easier. A bit more fluid. It’s opened up a lot more things for me. Inspiring. It’s been inspiring.

And it’s difficult sometimes. Sometimes I bog myself down with guilt for the old relationships, but I think that is just me being quite self-critical. But overall, it’s led to me being generally happier. And yeah, life is generally a bit more fluid.

So, it’s a decision I’m making and I’ll continue to make. And I’ll always keep assessing it going forward and reviewing it.